life in beta version

8 Jun

These days I set myself a new goal: to simplify my life. From the beginning of this year everything was going crazy and stuff just piled up and i found myself surrounded by all sorts of “clutter”. The pressure was high and still is. Every decision i have to take is consuming me as i try to take things seriously, especially those affecting my future, trying to come up with solutions to please all or at least many.

Sometimes i take a decision and try to stick on it, sometimes i second guess me.I think 2011 was (so far anyway) the year of choices for me. from little things that “just happened” to big decisions involving also people around me, people who care deeply about me and who i don’t wish to hurt whatsoever. but are hurt as the situations flow ahead, without my control.

I have to learn to see what is important to me and what makes me better and discover the “forward path”, without taking or considering even the sideway exits.

It’s a kind ofΒ  “voluntary simplicity” or a “focused simplicity” morelike. Life will always be crazy and hard, but i need to keep my mind set and unslipperish, need my concentration to be at the highest level in order to obtain more from a “focused” me.

Maybe i don’t even have the concept of “keep it simple” and i am made for this insane rhythm, this is what boosts my energy. But i am tired and i wish that things could be simpler, no more cloudless or haze. I enjoy my life to the fullest, taking what’s best from it, but i realize that all this maze of decisions isn’t good for anybody and i end up more surprised of me than others, not enjoying so much the whole life thing as i thought, cause my life is a constant drama which i enjoy like a masochist (figure of speech, doh! πŸ™‚ )

It’s high time to reconsider and to keep an open and clearer mind set and try to leave behind the constant stress and chaos of decision-making. It’s hard and i’ll definitely miss “my complications” in a life that is now so packed to the hilt .

What i’m saying is that i want to get rid of this general feeling of uneasiness, ME supporting my decisions and use this new-released energy to tackle one provocation at a time, be aware of what solid is, by letting aside the critical situations which i needed so much..try to stop shuffling.



5 Responses to “life in beta version”

  1. Valentin Valeanu June 9, 2011 at 3:56 pm #

    Goog luck to RC version πŸ™‚

  2. Ruxi Balea June 14, 2011 at 7:41 pm #

    Leave the country for about 1 year and all the crappy stuff that make feel sometimes so tired will go away like magic.
    I think your beta version has more chances of success if you go West

    • pinklabel June 15, 2011 at 12:46 pm #

      i don’t think the “go west” attitude is the best solution for everybody. for some, maybe. if i go west, i’m going because i’m really ready to do this and really want this, not because i want to run from the crappy stuff πŸ™‚

      • Ruxi Balea June 15, 2011 at 4:40 pm #

        Well I hope the crappy stuff that Romania has to “offer” will change soon, maybe then, we, all of us that we left our country, we will reconsider coming back. You don’t even realise how many crappy things can bring you stress until you actually make the move. That kind of stress (work conditions, unhappy, tensed and frustrated people, poverty, corrupted system, parking, public transportation, queues and so on, “manele”) can be such a biiiiig big factor in that power of focusing on our selves, the kind of focus you were mentioning in your post.

        Yes, I guess we all ran, the trick is we didn’t necessarily run away, we ran towards a more decent life with less stress so we can focus on our lives better πŸ™‚

        I do admire you though for being brave and staying on the barricades. I wish you all the best and that your beta version turns in a better lifestyle for you!

        Off topic: I love your new plugin that give you choice to login with FB, twitter etc. Which one is it? πŸ˜€

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