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MY best of it.

1 Feb

I made a decision to temporary put myself on the first place. And adventure. And long forgotten hobbies (like photography). Not family, not bf, not work, not friends, not sports, not money, etc. This was easy, but what came out of this wasn’t, or isn’t to be more exact. When I first started to think about solo traveling in Thailand nobody took me for real, maybe they knew I was too tightened to life here and I was speaking gibberish. But face it, I don’t really have (for now) REAL responsibilities, except for my own happiness and how I manage that, through me and through others around me. I’m not blind, people around me have great impact on me and I have great impact on them, but too many times I was thinking about the consequences of this fact and made decisions under this influence. All I want now is to take some time, spend it with myself. I was asked some time ago which was my superpower. I thought that I needed time to figure this out, but I already knew what was it: just being myself and being able to let myself go in the same time. Sometimes I look like sleepwalking through my life and sometimes i am more sober and capable that i ever thought i could be. This situation is no exception.

People around me acted as if “it will pass”, “it’s just a phase she is going, she won’t really see it through”. But I did. I (tried) to explain my decision to people important to me, I talked to my boss, I bought plane tickets. Then, people RE-ACTED. Some reacted good, much better than I expected them to (parents, colleagues, boss-btw, thx a bunch, guys!), some re-acted bad and made me (not to rethink my leaving, as they would have wanted), but made me sad that they weren’t there for me, that I couldn’t share the excitement, that they couldn’t be glad for me and that they couldn’t see my decision as a sign of a REAL step in sobering myself.

Maybe it’s just me, but when you are in a relationship you don’t “breathe” only that relationship. You need to be able to breathe by and for yourself, as an individual, as a part of a whole, in order to be able to breathe inside the relationship. Why can’t we just be relaxed and feel at ease with the other’s way of being even if it is different than ours? Why can we accept that THIS brings people together much more than trying to sculpture the other as you want him to be..

I let myself once be influenced and the result was that I didn’t do what I felt like doing. Back then, I was thinking too much with my heart, ignoring what my guts and mind were saying.. I don’t really regret it in the mean way, but now, a couple of years later, I still think about that moment like of a lost train or bad inspiration and I wished then for myself that I wouldn’t do this again, that I will listen to my guts, heart and mind. IN THE SAME TIME, hopefully. Life doesn’t give us any guarantees, I realized that. we only take leaps of faith or make decisions that we must assume for ourselves. What ever this means. I have to always think ahead and live my life as I know best.

Even if I don’t leave now, this feeling won’t stop, I won’t be able to take some time for me and my staying here, now, isn’t/won’t be a guarantee of a future whatsoever anyway. I’m certain that in one way or another, my leaving like this will definitely mean a change for me of some sort. And for others impacted. I’m no fool. As I can change perspective, everybody can do the same. It will enrich me and I’ll definitely find more goods than bads in the end, and if less fortunate things happen, I’ll make sure that I’ll find the courage and power to congratulate myself because I went through this by making the best of it. MY best of it.

Please note that ..”Life begins at the end of your comfort zone” – Neale Donald Walsch

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selected pics from turkey

27 Oct

more to come

Book day

31 Aug

I’ve seen lately that i don’t have enough time to read and sometimes when i feel like reading i don’t find smth really suited for exactly that moment. it’s bullshit and i realized yesterday it’s a lame excuse i keep telling myself as my nightstand (not to mention book stand) is  filled with already read books or ready to be read..

so, i needed a bump.

Starting today i enact a day per month or  every two months (it depends on how many books i bought last time and finish) to buy books!  online or from a book store. nevermind.  so, today was my first BOOK DAY and i spoiled myself by spending on two books! 😀

It will take a while until my order is here, but the books worth waiting. Anyway, i still have to finish the final chapter of  “Porno” by Irvine Welsh.

Book day 1:

  • What would Google do? here
  • God Explained in a Taxi Ride here

Ontopics:

– for finding good reviews and recommendations on books, check out Bookblog!

– for buying and also supporting social campaigns to encourage reading and so on, check out The World Changing Shop.  by bookblog.

Later edit

– for listening to interesting people talking about their favorites books, check out the Bookmark Project

Pics for the nearly weds

24 Apr

when my friend Roxana told me at the end of last summer that she wanted me to do a pre-wedding photo shooting this spring, i was so damn proud and excited and took this thought into great consideration, i guess in order to be prepared in a way when the time came :)) not to mention that i tried to come up with some ideas for the outdoor shots (place, concept etc).

Anyway, this crappy weather that has been going on for the last few weeks (rain, cloudy, sunny, rain again…) let me with little choice, being determined that the first sunny day is ours to shoot, somewhere green and colorful ! so, that day was last Sunday.

Take a look at the excited nearly weds! me so happy that I’ve managed to surprise their happiness the first time I grabbed the camera for this kind of “special requested” shooting 🙂

Selection:

Selection from Switzerland #1

19 Apr

Finally, i’ve managed to find some time to select and post on my Deviantart gallery a couple of pics from the Switzerland holiday (Dec 09-January 2010). More to come soon, as the ice was broken now 🙂

Results: Luzern city, one of the most beautiful  and a great panorama from Sigriswil, looking like The Eye of Mordor from LOTR.

Gallery Switzerland #take 1 🙂

Deviantart gallery

Flash news

26 Aug

Am luat permisul pentru A! hooray!

Dupa vreo 4 luni de scoala (multe pauze, intreruperi, concediu) am reusit sa ma programez si sa iau sala+traseu (azi, la Ilioara)!

A fost o scoala muncita, fugarita cand de la serviciu spre moto cand invers! nu ma grabeam sa fac repede repede scoala si sa ma stresez intr-o luna ca oricum motoreta pana in nov-dec nu pot sa imi iau. Deci de acum, pentru ziua mea si de Craciun, pe wish list trec un kit de lant, un cauciuc, niste oglinzi, niste genunchere, ORICE! :)) poate il fac din puzzle asa :))

Saluti bani aruncati pe haine si alte distractii, acum strangem cureaua, oricum destul de stransa dupa concediu asta asa prelungit si cheltuielile de scoala, echipament etc! 🙂

Dar acum am un nou target…nu de vanzari, ci de economii! :)) culmea!

Cat despre scoala, o recomand cu placere mai departe! Este vb de scoala lui Cristi Bratovici din Sema Park. Sunt 2 instructori foarte de treaba, rabdatori si de incredere (Cristi si Bobita). Faci pana reciti pe de rost traseul de examen si faci si indemanare, atat cat se poate face intr-un poligon. Au motorete ok, favoritul meu ramane TW-ul care era zdravan pentru traseele de indemanare. E mai scumpa scoala aici decat in alte locuri, dar merita.

in rest, asfalt uscat! 😀

iReadfaces by Cristian Radu

5 Aug

Vineri, inainte de a pleca la mare, am trecut cu Ruxandra (cu tupeu si curiozitate) pe la Cristian Radu. Cum am ajuns la el si de ce?

Eiii bine, acum ceva timp am inceput sa ma documentez pe net despre proiectele fotografilor romani, ce fac ei si ce as putea sa fac eu diferit. Spre suprinderea mea, nu sunt mult proiecte de acest gen si putine sunt cele care m-au atras si in care m-am regasit, sentimentul acela de invidie un pic ca ei mi-au luat-o inainte. 🙂 Dar asta este un compliment pentru ei, un semn enorm de apreciere 🙂 Normal ca mi-au luat-o inainte ca ei sunt profi si eu doar aspir sa-mi definesc un stil personal in fotografie.

Am citit despre proiectul lui Cristian Radu – iReadfaces si am decis sa il contactez sa ma bag si eu in seama. M-am gandit ca si mie mi-ar placea si m-ar implini (dupa ce se va auzi de proiectul meu) sa vina si la mine oameni doritori sa adere la proiectelul meu, oameni care sa creada si sa ma ajute sa devin mai buna in pasiunea mea si sa exprim emotii, sentimente, personalitati prin fotografiile mele.

Mai multe despre autor si proiect aici. Scopul proiectului este ca aceste portrete sa ajunga sa fie expuse intr-o galerie din care sa reiasa multitudinea  expresiilor si deschiderea oamenilor. Dorinta personala al lui Cristian este ca aceste portrete sa fie puse la avatarul la  Twitter, Facebook, etc.

Prietetenii imi spun ca nu ma caracterizeaza deloc fotografia. eu zambesc mereu, chiar si la poza mi-a fost greu sa nu am un mic suras in coltul gurii.

Imaginea parca e luata din Resident Evil sau e o poza facuta la IML. Imi place 🙂

Ma arata asa cum nu m-am vazut si cum nimeni nu m-a vazut niciodata. Complet eliberata, relaxata, serioasa si grava. Ineditul proiectului este chiar asta, cum reuseste sa scoata in evidenta simplitatea si in acelasi timp expresivitatea fiecarui chip fotografiat. Parca exact in momentul ala te transpui in altcineva fata de cum te cunosti tu si fata de cum te cunosc toti ceilalti.

Am o expresie aspra si grava, asa cum nu prea ma suprind eu de obicei. Nici trista nu sunt asa, gasesc mereu o modalitate de a disimula si de a fi optimista.

Intr-adevar, sunt poze greu de digerat, lipsa de culoare iti induce lipsa de viata, dar in fapt te arata mai “vie” ca niciodata, iti permite sa te uiti prin ochii subiectului si sa vezi mai..departe, o luminita aparte in ochi care iese o data ce ai dat la o parte culoarea, zambetul si imaginea de zi cu zi.

so, go on – Read my face … 🙂

Simona by Cristian Radu

Simona by Cristian Radu

Ruxandra by Cristian Radu

Ruxandra by Cristian Radu